Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Church Stuff

It probably has not been a secret that I have been totally burnt out on church stuff for a couple of years now. I was tired of trying to find God at church and either being hurt or disillusioned by the god I was finding. The glorious thing is that God met me all by myself in my little woods.
He healed a hurting heart and answered prayers I didn't even have the strength to pray. The greatest thing He did is He restored hope. I can once again believe in people and what miraculous things God can do using people.
The whole point of writing this is because once again I am excited about my church. I see people with a heart to serve and a heart to obey God. I am not directly involved in any of it and I really don't want to be involved other than one thing, to encourage. I want to encourage those who are doing something to continue to obey God even when it becomes hard. I want to put aside what I might change or make better to fit my family and support whole-heartedly those who are sacrificing to serve me and my family. I want more than anything to be positive and speak life and if I can't I need to sit down and shut-up.
Speaking positive things or nothing at all is hard for me. When I pay attention to my speech I recognize a lot of ugly things come out of my mouth.
I pray God helps me to watch what I say. I pray He will stop me before I speak bad about anyone or anything and if it is not pleasing to Him I will just keep my mouth shut.

1 comment:

AmyJo said...

Love you Tracy.

Amy