I realized the mind set I had going into the whole foster system would probably make me or break me. The sytem has problems, if I focused on the problems I was always going to be in constant turmoil. I decided that God Is in control. I say that, but there are times when I just didn't believe it. Randy and I have been through court cases and when the judge would make a decision that "seemed" as though it was against us I would instantly think God hated us- He must or this decision would have been different.
After going through the trials over our farm, I really know that God does work all things for good and when it seems the most desparate and hopeless, He shines like the brightest star and gives new hope and a new way out!
I never would have thought that all those court dates and being miserable for a time, building this house would prepare us so perfectly for fostering.
When we got our "new" boys, I knew we would only have them a short time (I just didn't know it was going to be 3 weeks short).
My plan was to send them home better than they came. So we just jumped in as a family and started tackling things one day at a time. It amazes me how much we accomplished in 3 short weeks. God is so good!
When we got the call for them to go back to their family I will admit I was mad and I knew this wasn't the best. I had so many other things I wanted to teach them and have them accomplish.
This is where going through things and not getting the answer I wanted helped so much. After my initial mad wore off I thought about it. God is in control and He does know what is best, so I am going to make this positive. I am now going to trust Him to care for these 2 boys and know I did the best I could in the time God gave me to care for them.
I walked away in peace instead of fear and worry.
God helped us to go into the situation with our minds set on Him and what He wanted us to do.
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Thanks for sharing. You are such an amazing person. I appreciate you opening up and sharing your life with us.
About sleep...it's a wonderful thing and I require a whole lot of it!
I love you guys!
Mindset does tend to make the biggest difference. I'm trying so hard to remind myself of that.
Amy
tracy, i love hearing about your life and your family...could you post about the oldest boy and the vision in the bathtub..?? :) i'd love to hear that again, as i'm sure many others would appreciate it as well. love you!
I love you, Tracy! I am reminded yet again of Phil. 4:8 where Paul writes, "Finally brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is noble, if anything is excellent or praiseworthy think about such things!
All the lessons that you have learned go right along with Phil 4:8. It is my personal goal to get every Christian I know to have the Phil 4:8 mind set. If we had this mindset, then the world would be a better place. Well, not really, but we would feel a lot better about it.
I love reading your posts and about the things you have learned. I had no clue that you and Randy had extra kids in the house until I read it here. God is moving on your behalf and I pray blessings into your life. Love you!
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