I have always known that sin is in our world. I just try to push it out of my mind most of the time. Last night Randy and I attended our first foster parenting/ adoption class. I was sick to my stomach after one class. I just couldn't fathom how evil people are. How are they capable of doing such horrendous things to children? I don't know if I will be able to handle the next 6 weeks.
Randy came away excited because it renewed his thoughts of helping give just one kid love, structure, safety, family. I came away terrified that I will not be able to handle what these kids have been through.
Growing up I was never abused in any way. Now I realize what an absolute miracle that was. I don't know why God protected me and kept me from it, but He did. Now my heart breaks for those who have been abused and I can't understand why adults do such things to kids. My mind can't comprehend it.
I'm scared I am so naive that I won't be able to function in this process.
I know God brought Randy and I together from such diverse backgrounds for a reason, but I feel like Mrs. Cleaver transplanted into an episode of CSI. (Not that I wear pearls with my best dress when I clean my house!)
The closer we get the more inadequate I feel.
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You will do fine. God is showing you now what the real world is like and giving you an opportunity to be able to change a part of it.
It might not be an easy transition, or even a warm fuzzy one. When you give birth to your own child, you are their start on life. Taking in children who have already had a start on life (and a hard one at that) couldn't possibly be an easy thing to do. I know that God has instilled in you and Randy all that you, your own children, and the ones you take in will need to make it through the toughest times. There are no two christians in this world who are more equipped to do this than you and Randy are. God will never give you more than what He knows you have the ability to bear. It may not be an easy course in life, but you can do it, and you can do it well.
Love,
Amy
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